it's new year!

it's been a while. since my last post.
suddenly it's new year's eve.
tommorow, it'll be 2009.


serasa baru semalam aku melangkah january
esok january akan tiba lagi
apakah kelekaan & kealpaan melampaui batas waktu
ataukah kesepian ini yg menghambat waktu berlalu
pantas tanpa henti, laju tanpa detik...

akukah...

akukah itu...

yang terlalu alpa

mengejar angan yang tak pasti

akukah itu...

yang terlalu pemaaf

meski hati luka terhiris

akukah itu...

yang terlalu lemah

gagal menepis ungkapan manis

akukah itu...

yang terlalu merindu
ditinggal pergi tanpa ayat sebaris

akukah itu...
sang pengemis cinta
sekadar menagih simpati gratis

akukah itu...

yang berhati rawan

meratapi awan gemawan menitiskan hujan

akukah itu...

sang perawan lara

rebah terkapar disisih kasih

who am I

who are you...

to tell me

if i'm wrong

who am i...

to say who deserves what

it's not me...

to say who's right who's not

i've traveled that road once

...and took a wrong turn

they won't accept me again...

di penjuru itu...

di penjuru sunyi...

aku terkulai
diratah sepi yang mencengkam

rama-rama pun tak sudi singgah

di penjuru sepi...

tubuhku layu

menyendiri menggamit memori

semilir angin datang berbisik

di penjuru mimpi...

ku terbaring lelah

menyeka titis air di pipi

tangis pun tak berlagu

di penjuru janji...

kosong dan gersang

laraku makin panjang

janji tak tertunaikan

di penjuru itu...

kelam makin membungkam

malam tak kunjung siang

tidurku dalam jaga

loneliness...

loneliness is darkness

a never-ending night

you’ll never fall asleep

a day is too long

to this empty place

where only i live

hurting inside

no one to talk to

no face in the mirror when i look at me

i am alone

...comfortless

...restless

...cold

closed eyes

with closed eyes
i won't see your face
don't need your picture anymore
to remind me

you're gone
and i'm alone
all i need is a sweet memory
can't seem to ease the pain

i wish i could
release this pain inside me

so

i closed my eyes
it helps me forget

i know it's gone and over
it's only getting harder
to say goodbye
even though it's hurts

so

i closed my eyes
i don't know for how long

don't know why...?

am I
over reacted

am I

too complicated

am I

too independent

am I

not ready for commitment

am I

so confused

am I

so desperate

am I

so sensitive

am I

so soft

am I

too fragile

don't know why...just let me know

bored & tired

i am beyond bored

i am bored of being bored

this world has nothing for me

i was tired

i did not want to deal with all the nonsense in my life anymore

it is so broken up

i don't think anyone can mend it

i am so empty

but..

hey...i'm still alive

i'm still young

got many great friends

only fools tired of life

i must love myself

i should value my life

i am a survivor

life is precious...

to me

to everyone

i'm tired - aku dah penat

i'm too tired.
for a couple of years i've been blaming it on

lack of sleep

not enough sunshine

too much pressure on my job.

i'm tired all the time...i can't live like this anymore.

aku dah penat.
tk larat nak kerja hari2
tk larat nak cerita pasal petrol mahal
jalan jammed tiap hari,mat rempit cilok sana sini

dah penat kerja mkn gaji

habis bulan habis gaji

hujung bulan mkn sup megi

i'm tired.

i'm tired of being sorry.

i'm tired of being single.

i'm tired of being broken lyrics.

i'm tired

but i don't want to sleep

just wanna close my eyes

coz i'm tired